25% over

I want to blog tonight. Unless you think I'm innately interesting, don't read this!

It's march 31st, I've only blogged four times and the year is 25% over. I feel lame. I 'got busy' last month. Events, life, relationships... let's just say that there wasn't much space for any rumination or reflection in my life, even plain old rest.

And the year is a quarter over.

I have a bad habit of thinking of things in negative terms. I think about what is gone as opposed to what is to come. I guess that makes me a pessimist.

I'm thinking about staff work with InterVarsity right now. I don't know if pessimists make good staff workers. I don't know if we have the idealistic vision, the faith in God's hand, and the stubbornness of spirit (we might have that... in a pessimistic sort of way) to lead student movements. I wonder... I wonder... but on some level I love what I do. I love getting a chance to show people Jesus' plan, Jesus' invitation, Jesus' challenge at such a critical junction in their life. It is an amazing experience.

I lead a track for Multi-ethnic students this past Saturday at IVs ethnic identity and spirituality day conference (we called it Kingdom Identity). It was a lot of fun and I enjoyed facilitating discussions and sharing from my own life and watching God interact with students over their understandings of themselves.

I know I have passions. what are they? the question I have been asking for over four years now and still feel like I haven't answered. What are my passions? How does one find these things out? I have but vague ideas.

Well, at least I have the rest of the year to figure it out right? It will be over before I know it!